Although I say that, I don't really know where to start! I have so many things I want to say and so many things I don't know how to say. I have a feeling that there will be many posts, not all in exact order - because I just have a lot to say! I want to be 100% ourselves and not leave anything out, but sometimes some things are just better left unsaid. Like that one time that Bill.....haha, just kidding.
I have created this blog because we want to adopt a baby. And when I say I want to adopt, I don't mean "want" like I "want" a new Canon 60D Digital SLR Camera with an 18-135mm IS lens!
For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a mom. I did not have a good relationship with my mother, and growing up I knew exactly how it *should* have been. I told myself that when I had a baby, I would be totally different. My child would come first in my life no matter what, and they would know they were loved unconditionally every day.
When Bill and I started dating, he had a 5 year old daughter. Over the last 5 years, we have formed a great relationship. I treat her as if she's my own and vice versa. She lives primarily with her mother, but we see her often. Grace is very excited for us to adopt, she wants a little brother or sister as much as I do for her! I took her to lunch one day and gave her the 9-year-old run down of adoption. She was instantly very excited and went to school and told her teacher and friends about it. Even though she wasn't here all of the time, she saw the affects of the infertility treatments and was excited that this way, I didn't have to get any more shots!
Ahhhhh, yes, the infertility treatments. I have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility. Also polycystic ovarian syndrome, but the dr's said that shouldn't have mattered with IVF. Speaking of In Vitro Fertilization, we have tried it 3 times. Not as many as some people, but 3 times too many. And that was the very last of the treatments. Before IVF, we had tried pills, injections, monitoring cycles ourselves, etc. In a sense, it was all worth it because if I hadn't done it I would always wonder "what if we had tried it?" But, alas, that was not the road for us either. We had discussed adoption before beginning the IVF cycles, but decided to try them just to see. Now we know that our baby is waiting for us somewhere, just not made from our own DNA. When we actually said it out loud, it was as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders and I knew that adoption is what we were meant to do. My great grandparents had adopted and my grandparents had adopted, so maybe I should have known this all along. But, I'm stubborn like that!
As I said before, I am writing this blog because we want to adopt a baby. As you read our story (which I will continue to work on!) please keep in mind to pass this blog link along. Even to people that you know are not looking to place their baby for adoption. Someone may know someone who knows someone. And this isn't all about us. Our baby will come from someone who is strong enough to know they are doing the right thing for their child. The decision that our baby's birth parents will make to place him/her (or both!) for adoption will be the hardest one they will ever have to make. But, hopefully, by reading about us and our life they will know that choosing us will be a great decision. Whoever you are, we are patiently waiting for your miracle and think of you every day!
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